Retreat?

I'm not reading a book right now. You see, I am ALWAYS reading a book! And I've tried to find one. Afterall, I spend 8 hours a day, 5 days a week in a library. But every book I pick up and try to read (though they are books about God, or about faith, etc)..well they just don't suit lately. God, as he usually does, is not bringing the right book to my attention right now. But there is something else going on in me. I'm hungry for more of God in a new way. And I know what I need is not another book in order to find him deeper. I'm overbooked right now, I guess I would say. I just want Him not books about Him. Our sermon Sunday was about this..desiring to come into the holy of holys. I've been there, would love to spend forever there, but can so easily neglect going back there..you know, life calls.

I hunger, I always hunger. I'm astounded that all other children of the king do not hunger... because I don't understand not hungering. Right now I'm pondering, "Should I go away to a secluded inn in the upper north? Lock myself in and wait to experience God in a new and deeper way- give it several days and come home glowing with the glory on my face?" Will God be there?

I know a woman who goes off on a personal retreat each year to meet with God. I just might do this. Wait, what am I now thinking? I'm thinking about what books should I take in which to discover God while I am there? Wait a minute, didn't I just say, I am not discovering him in books. (You see, it is a habit. One I must break. that of looking for God in books, as good as they are and as informational as they are.) Instead, I think I am sooooo ready to go another step more serious and go after something more one on one... sitting with him, several days, away. Will I?